THE OUTSIDER

By Colbi Mouser

College was tough for me. I didn’t live on campus for the most part, so I was always commuting to school and then working back home all of the other days. When I got the opportunity to move on campus for my final year, I worked non-stop to barely make rent. I felt like I was drowning in school and bills and I couldn’t catch a break. While everyone else seemed to be having a blast going to different events around campus, I was in the same routine every single day. I felt like an isolated outsider. I remember days that I would cry just because I felt so alone. Praying for God to get me through school was a must, non-stop. I had to rely on His presence and peace daily or else I would fall in a dark place.

During this time of feeling alone, I would constantly run to God because that was the only thing that gave me the slightest bit of hope. I would read Psalms every day, and looking back I truly believe that God used that time to show me even on the darkest days He is still good.

READ PSALM 91

Even though there are tons of passages that I would constantly go to, this specific one always gave me so much comfort. Even during the times where I didn’t necessarily feel His presence or I didn’t feel like reading this, He never failed to continue to meet me where I was. I know my struggle may look different than yours, but I want to encourage you to seek after whatever it may be that pulls you deeper into the presence of God. Seek after God through reading His promises to you. Seek after Him through getting alone and worshipping Him. Seek after Him with a community of friends and believers that do the same. And most of all, I want to encourage you to do this even on your darkest days of feeling alone. I promise you He will meet you there.