...BUT I CAN'T FIGHT

By Colbi Mouser

Do you ever catch yourself in amazement of who God is? He is the creator of the entire universe and everything in it. The one who breathed every star into existence and knows how many hairs are on your head. I could go on and on with this… But then on the other hand, do you ever catch yourself doubting God? Questioning his sovereignty? Are you ever hesitant of trusting him in certain areas of your life? I don’t know about you, but I’m 3/3. There are so many times when I catch myself not truly believing God can really do what He says He can do. I call myself a Christ follower, and I am quick to tell others what God can do for them, but when it really comes down to tough situations I am quick to doubt God’s faithfulness and control.

READ MARK 16:1-8

This passage is truly remarkable to me for a few reasons. First of all, the stone put in front of a tomb back then was no small thing. Typically they ranged from about 2,000-4,000 pounds, not to mention the structure of the stone once it was placed and secured between stonewalls. On top of this, there were Roman guards guarding the entrance of the tomb in case someone tried to steal the body of Jesus. The tomb of Jesus was secured and guarded with utmost attention and detail. Despite all of those challenges, I love the attitude of Mary Magdalene and Mary the Mother of James. Here are two women with hearts full of gratitude and love for Jesus. They simply wanted to go anoint his body with spices to show their love and respect. They knew the obstacles ahead of them yet they continued on. In verse 3, as they are traveling to the tomb, they questioned who would roll the stone away because they know they are not capable. Despite all of the challenges, they continued on. Maybe they were so overwhelmed by emotion, or maybe God urged them to continue, but for whatever reason they didn’t turn around.

As I read this, I stopped and put myself in their shoes. I didn’t even pretend like I would have continued to travel to the tomb. I would have doubted God. I would have let God know there was no way I could roll away a massive stone. And seriously, the guards outside of the tomb? There is NO WAY I could fight them take ‘em down!! I would have turned around and headed home because that was not a situation God could handle since I was not capable of handling it. That’s when it really hit me- my ignorance towards who God is. If I believe he is who he says he is, why would I continue to live in a way that revolves around my feelings and my personal perspective? What an ignorant view of God. Not only is he so much greater and bigger than anything we can comprehend, he is in authority over all creation. Don’t let what you think you aren’t capable of get in the way of everything God is capable of.