DO THEY WANT ME OR NOT?!

Nikki Hixson

Ephesians 3:20- “Now to him who is able to do immeasurable more than all we can ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us…”

Jeremiah 32:27- “’I am the Lord, the God of all mankind.  Is anything too hard for me?’”

I will never forget one of the first times in my life when I realized just how big God was.  When I realized just how able God was.  When I realized the depth and truth of our Key Verses today; whenever they finally came alive in my life.  It happened my senior year of high school.

In October, I took that one test that was made by the devil in hell… you know…the SAT. I hated that test. After I finished it, I decided I was never taking it again. Ever.  No matter what.  I had some sort of test anxiety and the last thing I was going to do was sit and take some test where they give you 4 hours to complete it. Heck no. Not again.  I got my scores a couple of months later and to my surprise, I made an 1150. Low, I know. HOWEVER, to get into Dallas Baptist University (the school I started to show some interest in), all I needed was a 1020… so, praise the Lord, I made it! I visited DBU a few weeks later and fell in love! Walking on the campus, I felt like I was at home.  I knew it was where the Lord wanted me.  And by His grace, I knew that I scored high enough on my SAT to get in… so, I turned in my application and waited peacefully for my acceptance letter.

A couple of months, which of course felt like years, went by and I finally received the letter I had been waiting for; or at least that is what I thought… until I opened it.  It read something like this: “Dear Nicole, thank you for your interest in our university.  We regret to inform you that because of your most recent SAT scores, we are unable to offer you admissions at this time…” WHAT?! No way. Someone is messing with me…and it’s not funny.  I KNOW I scored high enough.  All you had to get was a 1020 and I got an 1150!! This has to be a mistake. I’ll call and figure out who messed up.

Much to my surprise, I messed up big time.  You see, the score you have to make on your SAT to get into DBU is a 1020; however, they don’t include the Writing part in that number, only the Math and Reading.  So, I did make an 1150, but that was counting Math, Reading and Writing.  You don’t want to know what I made when you subtract the writing.  I was so confused.  I was sure DBU is where God wanted me; I knew it.  But, for Heaven’s sake, I was NOT going to retake that devil test.  So, I had to start looking at other options.  I needed a school where you didn’t have to score very high on the SAT to get in… I looked around at some smaller Christian universities but just never felt peace about going anywhere else.

About a month later I receive another letter from DBU that reads this: “Dear Nicole, we are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted into our university…” Um, WHAT!? Okay, now this really isn’t funny. I haven’t talked to anyone from DBU in weeks (and I didn’t want to). I was in the middle of trying to find somewhere else to go to college and I receive this letter?  First, I’m rejected and now, they’re saying I’m accepted even though I didn’t retake that devil test. Okay, this isn’t funny, God.

Long story short, neither of the letters were a mistake.  After they sent the rejection letter, I guess they decided to review my application again and they resolved to accept me under a few conditions: I was only allowed to take a certain number of classes my first semester, and I would have a mentor who would meet with me during my first year to make sure everything was going okay. So, I got into DBU after all… only because of Jesus.  Regardless of what the average person would say to all of this, this was a miracle.  God intervened and did the impossible. 

From this moment on, I began to wait in expectation for God to do things like this all the time.  He is able.  Furthermore, whether you believe it or not, He WANTS to do this type of thing for His children.  I believe He loves doing these things and receiving all the glory for it.  This is part of being a kid of the God of the universe.  Things happen for you, because of the favor He has on your life, that wouldn’t happen for the average person.  Enjoy it.  Believe Him for it.   He can do more than you can imagine.  Nothing is too hard for Him.